Only days into my blog and I’ve already neglected it.
Partially from being busy, partially from being embarrassed & personal drama.
Long story short – I gained weight, had a wonderful Christmas, then had someone I’ve loved for the past 3+ years tell me they hate me, call me horrible things, and want nothing to do with me.
So I’m at the point now where I’m numb from anger / crying / frustrations that I all I can do is smile and act normal. There’s nothing else to do!
Well that, and plan the wedding.
My family and I talked on Christmas day about reserving hotel rooms, when am I sending out save the dates, wedding website and such… which somewhat perpetuated my most recent wedding frenzy (that and not wanting to think about other things going on). I emailed my family about how to reserve a hotel room for the night, and several of them have already booked their rooms! Some types of rooms, have all ready sold out! INSANE! We’re 10+ months away… wow, 10 months. That’s not very far away is it? Feels different seeing the number on the screen. But people are booking their rooms, my mom and I have been heavily talking about her dress, centerpieces, flowers, I’ve been looking a lot at cakes, grooms cakes, cake toppers, favors. I’m going to go this weekend and pick up a few things to make a sample centerpiece. I’ll post pictures to hopefully get feedback on. I’ll add some ideas in additional posts soon. But because of the aforementioned drama, I am down a bridesmaid. So any readers out there – what are your thoughts? Currently, we have 4 bridesmaids, and 5 groomsmen. My options are:
- Pick another one of my female friends as a bridesmaid to equal 5
- Pick one of my fiance’s female friends as a bridesmaid to equal 5 (has 1 he’s kind of close to…)
- Leave things the way they are – who needs even numbers? It would save a little $
- Hire an ugly model to make me look good – I kid I kid… I don’t have that kind of superfluous money 😉
In regards to the weight gain – I’ve been trying to detox this week. Many meals consisted of clementines and chopped up raw veggies with some fat free rach to dip it in. And lots of water. I haven’t gone to the gym this week, but have taken a few walks around the neighborhood. I even ran the stairs a few times at work just for the heck of it. But we’ll see – I weigh in tomorrow, since WW is closed on Saturday. We’re going to order an elliptical this weekend too. That should take a week or so to get in – but then I get to do cardio every day in my own basement! Woohoo!
Hope all is well with everyone – HAPPY NEW YEARS!!! Here’s to 2011 being a wonderful, joyus, and healthy year for us all!